this is my first post here.. bcuz the other blog too long never go den cant get in... this post is still abt the guy tt i like. wei xuan

<<~CasS~>> says: nice rainbow huh everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: yea u saw? <<~CasS~>> says: haha no <<~CasS~>> says: saw e pic u took everyone's a hero, everyone's a star sends: Open(Alt+P) everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: how u see? <<~CasS~>> says: jud's blog You have successfully received C:\Documents and Settings\cass\My Documents\My Received Files\DSC00997.JPG from everyone's a hero, everyone's a star. <<~CasS~>> says: i was jus tryin to draw a rainbow everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: ha ok <<~CasS~>> says: den saw e pic everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: aww <<~CasS~>> says: haha.. <<~CasS~>> says: diao <<~CasS~>> says: hais... <<~CasS~>> says: thanks to jud's blog <<~CasS~>> says: made me =) le.. everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: aw hahah wat happen everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: why u so low <<~CasS~>> says: prob its jus a small thing la everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: wat thing <<~CasS~>> says: at first.. i was reli getting more and more low bcuz of retain <<~CasS~>> says: bcuz rite <<~CasS~>> says: my friends ard me are all j2s <<~CasS~>> says: eg during cell <<~CasS~>> says: during sharing <<~CasS~>> says: wad do u all share abt.. is all abt j2 life ma <<~CasS~>> says: not tt i m blamin u all la.. jus.. ya.. it sorta contrbuted la <<~CasS~>> says: den.. this week u all have 2 tests rite <<~CasS~>> says: so its like.. i didnt noe.. den asked some j2s out <<~CasS~>> says: den they like vvvv bz la.. <<~CasS~>> says: den realise like cnot reli tok to the j2s le lo <<~CasS~>> says: like grace dey all everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: y? <<~CasS~>> says: i reli canot... like make myself tok to dem <<~CasS~>> says: i dunno y <<~CasS~>> says: like.. i feel vv inferior <<~CasS~>> says: vv extra everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: sam and zac they all also talk to us ma <<~CasS~>> says: den oso feel like sometimes they vv sympathise me lidat <<~CasS~>> says: hmm <<~CasS~>> says: diff ba guys and girls <<~CasS~>> says: all the girls facing the same thing <<~CasS~>> says: i tot i was the onli one <<~CasS~>> says: den i asked serene they all everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: hahaa maybe u shd try ur attitude everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: maybe they like nt sympathising ma everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: u gotta take this step some how everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: u retained. its a fact everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: so wat u can do is quickly get over it. everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: its ur life. live it e way u shd everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: which is to get ur foundation for year1 agn and promote everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: friends will support u everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: talk to them everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: and they will talk to u everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: i believe they will be senstive enuff to nt tease u bout ur retain everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: i mean even if sam they all tease like ' no wonder we are retains everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: i mean like it may seem bad but act u all are facing it in a lighter way la everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: so yep everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: haa <<~CasS~>> says: yea... i und sam they all are trying to lighten the mood <<~CasS~>> says: esp for the girls <<~CasS~>> says: bcuz we r... still cannot get over la.. <<~CasS~>> says: den nvm.. i decided to mix with my class <<~CasS~>> says: den tried to ignore the gap between me and the j2s everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: hahaa <<~CasS~>> says: den i do my apgp tutorial <<~CasS~>> says: and u noe wad <<~CasS~>> says: i didnt noe how to do any qns <<~CasS~>> says: apart from warm up <<~CasS~>> says: i was like <<~CasS~>> says: didnt i do this last yr <<~CasS~>> says: and my classmates noe how to do <<~CasS~>> says: and i dun everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: aiya sure forget de ma everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: read the notes lo <<~CasS~>> says: i read le <<~CasS~>> says: i go lectures <<~CasS~>> says: but still everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: nvm ma <<~CasS~>> says: when i try to do <<~CasS~>> says: i stil dnno everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: forget that u are reatin <<~CasS~>> says: even e retainees noe how to do everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: treat it as aa new thing <<~CasS~>> says: and i dun now <<~CasS~>> says: noe <<~CasS~>> says: like hpw stupid can i get la <<~CasS~>> says: ok so studies i cmi <<~CasS~>> says: never mind <<~CasS~>> says: still got table tennis rite <<~CasS~>> says: yea.. everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: its ok to lose ma <<~CasS~>> says: so i went for training...and <<~CasS~>> says: i performed the worst ever everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: i also ma everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: in bball gt ups and downs <<~CasS~>> says: but must they all come tog <<~CasS~>> says: like <<~CasS~>> says: studies gone le <<~CasS~>> says: table tennis oso so cmi <<~CasS~>> says: like u noe.. everything <<~CasS~>> says: ok den aft tt.. everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: its e down period of ur life la everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: presson . everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: u will see e rainbow somehow everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: or give it to God la everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: like i prayed i entrust my bball to God everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: i do my best everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: and whether i get into team or nt everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: its up to God la. everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: i mean like even i perform badly everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: thn nvm try agn lo everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: u dunno how to do apgp everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: nvbm thn learn and do agn la everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: it wun do any better to feel low ma everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: u still gotta face it somehow everyone's a hero, everyone's a star sends: Open(Alt+P) <<~CasS~>> says: zhiyong... zhiyong le the guy i trust alot.. tell me.. he said.."quit jc la.. i think u cannot de.." den i said.. wad if i go switz he said" i tell u u sure cannot make it de" everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: heck him la everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: lol <<~CasS~>> says: i noe i shd trust it into God's hands <<~CasS~>> says: but like why.. why let me go thr all these tog everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: i dunno why everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: but i noe u gt GOd to do these with u everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: u gt our cell too ma <<~CasS~>> says: and worst of all.. He knows i need friends.. but He gives me this hurdle.. dat cut me from my friends everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: yea everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: to let u turn to God instead of frens You have successfully received C:\Documents and Settings\cass\My Documents\My Received Files\02 為主來夢想.m4a from everyone's a hero, everyone's a star. <<~CasS~>> says: just vv tired le. like keep smiling and laughin infront of my friends <<~CasS~>> says: tryin to look as normal as possible everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: god may have a purpose for u in J1 ma everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: help e j1s be a testimony la. <<~CasS~>> says: even when dang shi say he can see i m upset.. i still had to laugh it off everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: even if u are a retainee dun mean u are a bad testimony everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: show them hwo u can face life as usual even if u are a retainee <<~CasS~>> says: this is jus e start <<~CasS~>> says: how to hang on until the end <<~CasS~>> says: i can hang on <<~CasS~>> says: but not so long le <<~CasS~>> says: wei xuan.. vv tired le.. everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: a bit more u will get used to it <<~CasS~>> says: do u noe.. i need to pass all ALL ALL my lt tests if not kicked out everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: haha can la everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: u can dd everyone's a hero, everyone's a star says: de <<~CasS~>> says: hope so ba.. Lord.. this is the guy i like.. none other than my cell mate Wei Xuan.. Lord ar.. he has a gf le.. i was readin the previous post which was quite long ago.. but i didnt tell him.. now.. he got judith le. she is reli a great girl..reli.. she is vv caring.. vv zealous.. and she never gives up..she is strong.. she is sporty.. reli everything.. but me.. i feel tt i cant hold a candle to her.. Is wei xuan reli gone le. =( when i read jud's secret msgs for wei xuan on her blog.. i cant help but feel sour.. how Lord... do i reli like him.. if not why will i feel so.. argh.. i see him in sch.. i get so happy.. but Lord.. is he the one You are preparin for me? see e convo above... he is so encouraging so motivating.. so God loving.. Lord u noe he is the first guy tt i got attracted to bcuz of his God-loving side... not by looks not by character.. but by his love for u.. this is reli authentic... Lord.. help me.. pls.. if wei xuan is not the one for me.. i pray Lord that u will help me to get over him quick.. or maybe if it is ur will let him tell me tt he dun like me and will never like me... but Lord if He is the one u are going to prepaer for me then Lord i pray that You giveme a sign.. to wait Lord.. tell me and instruct me.. and i will follow.. thank you Lord

your confused daughter,
Cassandra